Saturday, August 22, 2009

my big time...i guess.

well, this week, i've had a very long week...
i'm tired..seriously..mentally and physically.
i cried, o yes.
because i could no longer keep the burden inside.

firstly, its because i think this is the biggest prob ever,
that i've been faced with.

and it involves money.
well, its not that i dont have money.

but my money are lent to many others.
and though i need the money badly,
i cant ask for the money from them.
coz they dont have the money to pay me back right now.

i'm tired.
seriously tired.
cant believe it, till this moment,
that i have got this prob.

i know this is a way.
Allah uses to teach me a lesson.
never ever forget him.
that he is the Almighty.
no one can be above him.

and i know.
i've got to learn a lesson from this.
to equip myself for the future.
for bigger things than this.

i've got to be strong.
like i always did.
with every little bit of courage left.
with every little pride left.
with every drop of tears.

this is not about money alone.
this is about belief, courage, determination,
responsibility.
this is about me.

face it najah.
this is real life.
i have to go through this before i'm considered matured.
o yes.

all this while, i would always smile,
though i have no money.
but this time,
i feel it hard to smile
bcoz i have burden.

i laugh over my probs.
because i dont want to think about them.
for every problem i have,
i would always get away
from thinking hard.
by laughing.
and forgetting.

for the very first time,
i was hit hard.
i cried for the first time.
and i feel very bad.
very, very bad.

plus i couldn't tell my parents about this.
only my brothers know.
and thats bcoz i would be needing them
for money.

i'm tired. very, very tired.
please.
tears and sadness!
let me go!

MAJ front-left view

MAJ front view. abang tow yang sengal da dtg.but thanks, he act 'helped' us out,
a little.

by the time MAJ was pushed up the tow truck.

MAJ on the tow truck. poor MAJ.

MAJ from faraway. in front the police station of s. 11, Shah Alam.

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