just not me..

i am an English language students, but not TESL...
and there is a subject called e-language multimedia...
i hate to say this but i despise this subject...
it is just not me...
for some reasons, the faculty decided to include this course as it may be handful when we graduated but i just cant do this...
if i want to do this, i would have chosen multimedia as my desired COURSE!
and now i have to struggle in this 4 hours class to maintain my excellent GPA that i have been securing since the last first 2 sems...
its not that i didn't try, i tried but the whole thing in the programming world just cant fit me and myself...
i am a linguist by nature..i am not carrying my own basket (masuk bakul angkat sendiri) but my lecturer said that to me, OK?
and true enough i know well what are my wants, desires, needs, likes, dislikes and i dislike programming!
dealing with this is a waste of time as it is time-consuming and i don't have that creative part residing in any hidden corner of my mind!
i love looking at others' job but when it comes to mine, i just cant bear to admit how unattractive my creation is...
oh please! if only i could drop the subject!
for those who would like to view my 'creative work' or others' in the group, click http://10.5.2.106 and choose EPC681_3A and only those who know my name will be able to view my page...sorry guys..so long,till i blog again!