He loves me, not?

today, we went out at our normal time to go to wangsa maju,
but since we have to refuel first,
we were on the road later than usual,
and as kak mim said,
we would be caught in traffic jam if we go out later than 6.30...
well, we usually take our leave at 6.40,
and the jam is not that bad,
but today, we were later than 6.40,
and so there we were,
in a long way to KL...
at 7.19, we were still in Subang,
which meant that we were already late as usually,
by 7.19, we would have reached KL safely.

my patience and calmness were kept at the maximum level,
because i know, anything could happen if i were rushing and impatient.
my maximum level of patience is actually synonymous with one normal person's anger at minimum level.
hahahah. so u know how PATIENT i am..

till we reach KL, we couldnt go more than 40km/h and thats bad.
so, once i got the chance to go faster than that,
i did and i was driving at 80km/h.
yes, i know its not that fast for some people but the road is act quite tricky for me, an amateur, as it has many curves and i cant go faster than that with more car than usual around me.

then, i was not letting go of the accelerator when i passed one last junction and when the straight road was visible, there was a long line of cars in front of me about 100 meters from me.

i know with the speed that i was going with,
i cant stop the car at the usual brake level so i stepped on it, as hard as i could, to stop the car
and due to the strongest impact, i heard the tyres screeching and i was paralyzed for a moment. when the car stopped totally, the car was shaking and i couldnt think of anything worse than having my tyres punctured due to the impact.

then, mimi said, "hey, the gear!"
"oh!" and i freed the gear at once, and the shaking stopped.
phew!

but seriously, i was trembling in fear recalling the incident as i tried to relate it with the accident i had not long before i have my license.
i couldnt think of anything than feeling lucky and Grateful upon HIM for his Might that saved us from anything fatal or worse than that.

i switched off the radio to calm myself down
and we went through the next few minutes in tranquility.
no one spoke, no one commented about that, and i didnt wish to hear one either.
i just need to be at peace and i'm thankful they understood me well, or less.

i was thinking about the tyres.
are they in good condition?
my mind had started to mourn for the money i would have to spend in order to get the tyres replaced if something really happened as a result to the incident.
but thankfully, nothing happened and they looked as good as new.
Alhamdulillah....

well, actually, thats the right thing to be done when we are in that kind of situation, and
prob is, i nearly went into panic mode.
thats why i cant think of anything other than to step on the brake instantly.

usually, when we passed the curve,
we wont meet a long queue at such a short distance but since, like i said just now, we were later than usual, its just unfortunate that we met a long queue once the road was visible.

and i really feel grateful and everyone was safe and sound,
and only the tyres got sacrificed, well, a little.

and i know, He loves me.
i will not feel remorseful or not at ease for having to repeat this all the time,
but seriously, I THANK YOU ALLAH.
4 everything.